Every time an important chapter of my life ends I usually write about it. I get my closure that way. And maybe if I do that now it will help me move on, help me start something new and be happy about it. Even though I have someone in new my life I still miss you greatly, and maybe writing this will help.
I know that this probably didn't seem like such a big thing to you. I know that it didn't change your life like it changed mine. But the day you came into my life everything about me changed. You made me so happy, you made everything seem okay. You would pull up to my house and the problems of my day would melt away. You would hold me in your arms and I felt completely and totally safe. Your lips on mine made my heart flutter, and my cheeks get warm. I loved you so much. I loved everything about us. How we could be romantic and still be best friends.
You taught me that it was okay to feel things. You would hold me while I cried, laugh with me (or at me [: ) Your eyes would adore me and you said 'I love you.' Babe, if you didn't come into my life when you did I'm not sure how much longer I would lived. You changed everything about me and I'm so grateful for all the time we had together and I wish that we had more days. I wish that I would have made a bigger impact on your life. I wish you would have opened up to me the way I opened up to you. But it's over now, everything that we had is over. And I just wanted to thank you for the year we had together. Thank you for letting me be myself and making me feel loved. You always made me smile, made me blush, and laugh. Thank you for being my friend, my lover, my go to man, my everything.
There will always be a part of me that will miss you. A part of me that will miss the way we use to be. Miss the sound of your voice and the way your eyes looked at me. You helped me get through so much and I greatly appreciate everything you've done for me.
You inspired me. I have this great story because of you. I wanted to be someone you could be proud of, someone you could talk about. I wanted to be someone who was good enough to be with you. However, I guess I wasn't what you needed, I wasn't the person that made things okay for you.
I hope your find that person and they change you as much as you changed me. I hope that they impact your life in the greatest possible way. I know that you will find that person because you're such a great guy. And I know that you will be very happy with her. But I hope, while your finding her, I hope your think of me once in a while. I hope you miss the moments we had together and realize that I loved you with every ounce of my body. I hope you think of our conversations and my smile. I hope you miss my hugs and the way I would hide my face after a kiss. I hope you miss the things you loved about me as well as all my flaws. My indecisiveness and my silliness. I hope you miss my singing in the car and the way I would rub your back.
But it's time to let go. It's time to move on from those times and try to create new, wonderful, ones with different people. This will be the last time I every write about you. The last time I think of our memories as sad. From here on out I'm going to try to think of those days fondly, or not at all.
This was the hardest thing I've ever written,
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